Decisions, Decisions.

Oh boy. Decisions.

Do I close this chapter and start a new one?
Do I take a left instead of a right?
Do I go to this school or the next one?
Do I talk to this guy or ignore this one?

Life is just full of decisions. Sometimes we let fate decide, sometimes we let our parents decide, sometimes we become totally irrational and just do what we want to do and not think about the consequences, sometimes we just don't do anything about it and push to the back and just let it get figured out on it's own.

I know you've been there. All of us have. It's not exactly the most fun place to be, cause there's really no "good" advice for it.

Some say listen to your heart, or let God decide. I usually find myself being that one person who's crazy irrational and just acts on what my mind tells me. I kinda need to start listening to my heart though.

I've heard that it will never steer me wrong...

There's no actual solution to this post. Haha just something to think about! I know I've got a few big decisions in the near future.. as some would say, I need to "tighten up"

But I mean, whatever my decision will be...I know the outcome will be part of God's plan for me! And you too!!

So as they say, TIGHTEN UP! LOL

Xoxo
Dee

Good Enough.

Hmm. This one is kind of a toughie.


I know I posted a few days ago about not being perfect, and being completely fine. But I'll always wonder.


I'll always wonder why I wasn't good enough to get into my dream school.


I'll always wonder why I wasn't good enough to be so and so's girl.


I'll always wonder why I wasn't good enough to get that 4.5 GPA


I'll always wonder why I wasn't good enough to get a text back....


You see, I could drive myself insane wondering what I did wrong or better yet, what I'm DOING wrong that's making me "not good enough"


But then, where would that get me?


ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE,  But a deep hole of depression or self pity. And well, that's just not gonna kick it.


So I mean, back to the perfect thing. Like I said before, I'm not perfect.


And I just may never be "good enough" for a lot of things in life. But I won't ever catch myself again being upset and depressed about it. Cause well, it's their loss. :)


"Don't let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen"-Ephesians 4:29
Xoxo
Dee

I Have A Confession.

Why hello there, again.

So I have a confession, it's kind of a big one...
Sit down, this may be intense for you.

*Deep breath*

I am not perfect.

Kind of feels good getting that out. (I know you were expecting some big juicy scandalous secret, but I mean to me that's pretty big)

I'm not a size 4, I don't have long hair, I don't know what I'm doing 90% of the time, I say stupid things, I get mad at people for dumb reasons, I over analyze everything. I make mistakes, sometimes small, usually big. I slip up every now and then and do something really, really stupid. I get distracted, don't listen to people, I'm stubborn, I'm indecisive.

I'M NOT PERFECT. 


But I'm happy.


I'm happy that there is someone who can accept me after all those flaws. I'm happy that at the end of the day, His opinion of me is the only one that matters. I'm happy because even though I constantly mess up, He still loves me for me. 

I'm kind of starting to accept all those flaws. As long as the sun rises every morning, I will never be perfect. And well...I'm okay with that.

I'm really glad I could share this secret with you :)

"I have faith in a Savior who gives me LIFE"

"You have to find happiness within yourself so that you are able to know, everything will be okay at the end of the day."

Xoxo
Dee

The Bigger Picture.

So, most of you are aware that I am a HUGEEEE Gleek! Seriously, best show ever.

Anyway, Glee inspired me a few weeks ago to ask someone to prom..not the best thing I've done hahah either way, besides the point!

Tonight on Glee, Mr. Shoo gave a talk about "the bigger picture"

For those of you who don't know, one of the kids on Glee attempted suicide because he was bullied for being gay. Regardless of how you feel about gays, I think we can all come to the consensus that suicide is not okay..

Anyway, getting to the point it amazes me how great God is. 
Today was another icky day and I was really upset. (NOT suicidal, nor thinking about it!!) But I just felt like giving up. 

I went along with my usual Tuesday rituals and I felt like the little talk Shoo gave fit perfectly with my situation.

Sometimes, it takes looking at the bigger picture to get through what your going through.

No matter how hopeless and upset you are, you just have to think of how much life has to offer you. How much you mean to someone. How much you can do. How much the world needs you.

You see, things just don't happen for any ole reason. Whether you believe in God or not (I Really hope you do) He has a reason for EVERYTHING.

If you don't take any thing from this post, just know that you can do it.

You may not be suicidal, but you feel like giving up. Just know that you can do it. I believe in you. It's time you start believing in yourself.

You CAN do this. It's not the end. Think of the bigger picture. The power to change the world is in YOUR hands. Keep pressing on, you can make it. 


"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"-Philippians 4:13


xoxo
Dee

"In God We Trust"

No fancy text for this one. I just need to vent.

Man. This weekend was a completely upside down, topsy turvy weekend. Seriously..

I just don't even know where to begin. dkolafafkfsfkwsif  BLAH.

I feel like whenever things start to go amazingly well BAM. Something has to go and mess up EVERYTHING. Don't you just hate when that happens..?

But then I just have to remember "In God we Trust"

It's everywhere. On our dollar bills, the white house, tv, my living room, my bedroom AND kitchen.

Legit..everywhere. I'm not one to question the Lord but today I'm just wondering what is He up too..?

I feel like I've had it with all this bad news and sickness and drama. I just can't take it emotionally or pretty much physically anymore. But then again "In God we trust" shows up.

It gets hard, and it got really hard today. But I'm trusting.
I know He has a plan. It's just really confusing to not know where this plan is going.

This weekend just overall, sucked. And I'm currently really confused. But I'm trusting.

I may loose hope but I will never give up.
God has a plan. God has a plan. God has a plan..

The more I repeat it, I guess the more I'll start to believe it.

Sorry for a kind of depressing post guys. Wah.


"but those who trust in the LORD will lack no good thing."-Psalm 34:10
xoxo
Dee

A Slice of Humble Pie

Man oh man. This subject..

Humility. 


We've all heard it before. "The best people are the most humble"
Today I had to sit down, shut up and have a slice of humble pie.


I found myself touring a school that I felt I was "too good" for. I had this established concept that I deserved to be in a four year university and not a community college because well, I was me. When reality, the school was actually too good for me. 


In life, a lot of people struggle with humility.
I mean, I don't brag about things. (That's tacky as ever to me). But I used to place myself on this pedestal because I wanted the better things in life. Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing to want the best. But when you have a preconceived thought that you can't do certain things because you're better, that's when you start to reach your downfall.


I wouldn't say that I reached my downfall, but I came kind of close to it. 


At times, we feel like we're better than other people. That we're entitled to certain things when in reality, we're not. Unless you work hard and actually earn it is when you act such way. But even then, it's not okay. Because you start to feel  like you're just too good for everyone and everything. Especially, God. And well quite frankly, ya kinda can't do anything without the guy. 


So while I was busy having my melodramatic attitude about being "too good" I missed out on a great opportunity. Like my mom always used to say, "If you don't listen, you're gonna feel"


And boy did I feel today...


To wrap this little rant up..I kinda just had to realize that I'm not as good as I think I am and well, there are people in this world who are better than me. I just need to keep praying and working on my attitude. It's gonna be hard. But I don't ever wanna be in the place where I miss out an amazing experience just because I think I'm "better than that"


I really do hope this made some sort of sense....


Hahahaha Thanks for reading :)


"But those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted."-Matthew 23:12
Xoxo
Dee 

Forever

"Nothing lasts forever; nothing good,  nothing bad" 


Well this is my actual first blog thing a ma jig. I'm excited.


Today I found my face with a big decision to make. Do I stay or do I walk away? 


I was told a few years ago that nothing in life will last forever. Nothing bad, nothing good. It's kind of a depressing quote but I mean at the end of the day....it's true. Nothing really does last forever. People die, babies are born. People break up, people get married. It's not the rainbows and unicorns image that we were all brought up with, but I mean sometimes we have to face reality.


As much as reality hurts...once we face it, things become so much easier to deal with. It makes moving on easier, it makes life just so much better, it makes the pain and suffering bearable.


I faced reality today. I'm not gonna sit here and say that I know what I'm doing. I don't. But I do know that somewhere out there, even if it's in the Pacific Ocean, God has a plan for me. I know that what I decided to do today was all according to His plan for my life. And that everything will be okay. I just have to keep trusting.


So, whatever it is that you may be going through, just know that the pain and suffering won't last forever, it's going to have to get better. But be on your toes and keep praying, cause it's going to have to rain sometimes. Plants can't grow without water. 


"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"-Proverbs 3:5


This is not the end. So keep smiling, you're beautiful
xoxo
Dee




PS: I'll get better at this blogging thing by the next time I have a post, promise!!

WELCOME!

Why hello there.
So you've found yourself to my blog. It wasn't a coincidence, I guarantee that.


This is where I'll take my venting too. I'll try to some how tie it into God well because, I love Him and he puts up with me daily.


I love you already for reading this blog and so does God. Don't ever forget that!!


"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that who shall ever believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16


Xoxo,
Dee